Hello.

I'm not dead. In fact, I'm very much alive. I simply never update because I never have anything interesting to write. I seriously have not update in a year and three-quarters. You totally thought I was going to say "a year and a half," didn't you? Well, you thought wrong. Harsh, I know. But, let's face it, the truth hurts.

Wow. Wtf?... Honestly, I have no idea.

Currently, I'm in Austin. My parents went to Mexico for my mom's birthday, so Atom and I are taking care of my sister for a few days. By the way, when you are reading this, or if you ever read this for that matter, be aware that you should pronounce "Mexico" with a hispanic accent like so, "Me-hico." I know you are only reading in your head, but it's more fun that way. 

It's been fun so far here in Austin. The weather hasn't been great; it's been pouring down rain, while being extremely humid and hot. See, here is the thing with the rain here. It rains ridiculously hard, like a huge faucet has been opened over the city, for about 5 minutes, then, suddenly, it stops and the sun comes out. And the process continues. Naturally, it always seems to be raining while I am outside, and when I'm inside the rain has stopped. But that's only normal...

We had a little adventure on Saturday, trying to get to my sister's gymnastics meet. Looked up the directions on Google (which, by the way, is not accurate for directions), and the computer/site gave me the wrong directions. Naturally. Of course, we don't realize this until we are lost. We stopped at a gas station, looked the gym up in the phone book, and called for the correct directions. Thankfully, we were not far away. However, my sister was about half an hour late, and did not even get to warm up. I felt horrible, and almost started crying. Ok. So, I did cry. A little. But! My sister kicked ass, and placed second all around (first on bars). Ye-ah. We almost got lost on the way home. Let's just say, we took the long way home.

As for me, I'm going to school and working. I'm still working on my acting. I haven't given up... yet. And I've started photography. In fact, I think I am going to double major in theatre and photography. As for Starbucks, it can kiss my ass. I am so sick of working there that I am seriously thinking about quitting. I have worked there for six months and I am so tired, it's ridiculous. I don't know how people can work there for years. Honestly, the only reason I work there is because it's convinient at the moment. I need a car.

Atom and I live together, and we have not broken up/had any problems, unlike all of the other couples we've known to move in together and break up within a week. We still don't have an exact date for the wedding, but we have decided that it will be in March of 2008! Eeeeek! I'm so excited and nervous and stressed at the same time! There are so many things we need to figure out, and it's such an important thing, with so much responsibility, and he is going to be my husband. Weird. That is so very strange to say...

That's pretty much my life in a nutshell. Can you imagine if we were so small, small enough to live inside of an actual nutshell? How strange would the world be...

I miss everyone.

Oh. And facebook? What's your take? Yes or no... I don't know.

Ciao raggazzi!

I know, I know. You all probably thought I was dead-slash-had completely gone out of exsistance. But, obviously, I'm still alive. So stop freaking out for Christ's sake.

I recently moved apartments, and I do not yet have the internet, which makes it quite difficult to update. Isn't it crazy how that works?

I am currently sitting in Ally's apartment, slightly hung over, enjoying a delicious breakfast of strawberries, apples, and watermelon (Margarita!!)  while using her computer. Last night was a good, fun night, which I was in need of. And today is going to be a  wonderful day (even though I have to work and cannot go to the beach with Ally and company).

I think I have decided that I am going to France with Margaret and Amanda. I know this may sound strange but I need a vacation.

VEGETABLE:
mushrooms

FRUIT:
grapefruit

MEAL:
um... i like all meals

CANDY:
red hots

BEVERAGE (non-alcoholic):
any diet soda

BEVERAGE (alcoholic): 
shots of Jack Daniels

COLOR: 
olive green; it usually turns out looking like shitty brown mixed with a tint of green 

TOWN/CITY:
i don't know

RESTAURANT:
i'm not a huge fan of Maggiano's; although the food is not bad, the people who work there portray it to be a very up-scale restaurant when it's not, and the food is not authentic Italian food

FAST FOOD JOINT:
In and Out

SONG:
A lot of Justin Timberlake songs

TV SHOW:
Malcom in the Middle 

MOVIE:
i can't think of one at the moment

BAND/GROUP:
i'm not sure

FEMALE SOLO ARTIST: 
Beyonce

MALE SOLO ARTIST: 
Justin Timberlake

ASPECT OF MYSPACE:
the fact that everyone and their mother has an account

ASPECT OF INSTANT MESSAGING:
if you have the sound on, the sound it makes when you send a message

ANIMAL: 
i don't know

INSECTS:
Cockroaches and spiders and crickets; all insects

BIRD:
crows

SEASON: 
i don't have a hated season, but fall is my least favorite 

AGE IN KIDS:
the age in which kids cry the most

WHAT ANNOYS YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING:
people who talk to me when i'm so very obviously doing something

DRIVING:
people who drive slower than sin

THE PHONE:
talking on it for a long time

WATCHING TV OR MOVIES:
people who talk through an entire movie, commenting on every little detail of the movie

EATING IN RESTAURANTS:
rude waiters

GOING THROUGH DRIVE-THRUS: 
having to lean half way out the window, so your order can be heard 

GOING TO THE MALL:
14 year olds

SLEEPING (OR TRYING TO SLEEP):
waking up every two fucking hours (for some random and unkonw reason)

SHOWERING:
when the water will randomly get either really really hot or really really cold

YOU'RE AT THE BEACH: 
i love the beach 

YOU'RE AT THE GROCERY STORE:
waiting in line to check out; walking through every isle more than once because you can't find what you are looking for

SITTING IN CLASS: 
boring lessons 

YOU'RE AT YOUR JOB:
people claiming you have made their drink the wrong way, when they have hovered over you watching you do the right thing; and making frappucinos

BEING AROUND KIDS: 
crying

IT'S THE HOLIDAY SEASON:
crowded stores

PLAYING VIDEO GAMES: 
the fact that Atom can play for hours

COOKING OR BAKING:
cleaning up afterwards, or waiting for the food to cook

WHAT'S YOUR LEAST FAVORITE THING TO DO INVOLVING CLEANING?
taking the damn trash out (just for the record, i have to do it every fucking time)

WHAT HOUSEHOLD CHORE DO YOU HATE THE MOST?
cleaning the bathroom

WHAT DO YOU THINK WOULD BE THE ABSOLUTE WORST WAY TO DIE?
burning

WHAT'S THE MOST ANNOYING HABIT IN OTHERS?
talking about yourself all the fucking time

WHAT IS your WORST HABIT?
being a spoiled bratt

WHAT FASHION TREND (PAST OR PRESENT) HAVE YOU HATED THE MOST?
the 80s (?)

MOST HATED LINE FROM YOUR PARENTS:
"UT is a great university"

WORST OR MOST HATED PICKUP LINE:
"wow, you're beautiful"

MOST HATED POLICY OF A TEACHER/PROFESSOR:
rough drafts

WORST THING ABOUT BEING A LITTLE KID:
not being able to play with your toys

WORST THING ABOUT BEING MIDDLE SCHOOL AGED (anywhere from 5-8th grade):
fitting in

WORST THING ABOUT HIGH SCHOOL:
drama

WORST THING ABOUT COLLEGE:
hangovers

DUMBEST RULE YOU REMEMBER FROM SCHOOL (any year or grade):
must attend class

MOST IRRITATING THING ABOUT YOUR CAR:
i don't have one

TO BE COMPLETELY STEREOTYPICAL, WHAT DO YOU THINK IS THE MOST ANNOYING THING ABOUT GIRLS?
self-conciousness

TO BE COMPLETELY STEREOTYPICAL, WHAT DO YOU THINK IS THE MOST ANNOYING THING ABOUT GUYS?
being assholes

MOST HATED ONLINE EXPRESSION:
lol

MOST HATED EVERYDAY PHRASE/SAYING/EXPRESSION:
"sup, dog"

MOST HATED THING REGARDING POLITICS:
bush

WHAT'S ANNOYING YOU TODAY?
myself

I never want to make a frappuccino again. Ever.

It is 6:18 in the morning.

I woke up at 5:05 am. I laid in bed for about half an hour, attempting to fall back asleep. Obviously, that didn't work. Not being able to fall back asleep, I made breakfast. To my surprise, and perhaps everyone else's, I was hungry.

I can't seem to sleep. Last night, I did not fall asleep until after midnight, once again. Then I woke up at some time in the middle of the night. The other night, I fell asleep at around 12:20-ish, after which I woke up at 2, 3-something, and again at 5. Then I actually woke up (meaning got out of bed) at 8:15 in the morning. I can't even sleep in past 9-9:30 at the latest, unless for some odd reason, I go to bed at 6 in the morning.

I wish I could go into hybernation.

TANTI AUGURI A TE! TANTI AUGURI A TE!

TANTI AUGURI A DAAARIOOOOO!

TAAANTI AUGUUURI AAA TEEEEE!

*insert clapping and cheering*

One more time! In English!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR DAAARIOOOOO!

HAAAPPY BIRTHDAAAY TOOO YOOOUUU!

*insert more clapping and cheering*

Un bacione papa'.

1. What is your middle name?
I don't have one.

2. Last person you kissed?
Atom

3. What are you listening to right now?
Nothing, but Dolly Parton is stuck in my head.

4. What are you eating right now?
I just finished eating a yogurt and a gronola bar.

5. What are you drinking right now?
A cup of tea.

6. Last person you hugged?
Saidee

7. How is the weather right now?
Sunny

8. Last person you talked to on the phone?
Atom

9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
I'm not sure... hair?

10. Favorite Food?
My granmother's pizza

11. Do you drink?
Who doesn't?

12. Do you smoke?
Every once in a while when I've one too many drinks. Unfortunately the other night I went a little over board, and smoked half a pack of cigarettes. It's disgusting, I know. With my luck I probably developed lung cancer.

13.Ever get so drunk you cant rememeber what you did?
Nope, but sometimes I need to be refreshed on the events of the night.

14. Hair color?
Brown

15. Eye color?
Blue

16. Do you wear contacts?
No

17. Favorite Holiday?
Christmas

18. How many siblings do you have?
One, a younger sister.

19. Have you ever cried for no reason?
Yes. I believe I did that last night. Although, I think I know the reason but I'm not sure...

20. Last Movie you Watched?
Date Movie

29. What books are you reading?
Nothing at the moment, but I will be starting "Speaker for the Dead."

30. Piercings?
Nine

31. Favorite movie?
The Goonies. Like I've said before, one phrase, "Hey you guuuuuys!"

32. Favorite basketball Team?
I don't watch much basketball, but when I do it's a game with the Lakers, and that's who I cheer for. So, I guess the Lakers.

33.What were you doing before filling this out?
Having breakfast.

34. Any pets?
A cat, Stella.

35. AIM?
Only when I'm in Austin.

36. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?
Butter and salted, just salted, or plain. I could go either way.

37. Cats or dogs?
Cats, even though mine has been really pissing me off lately. I just washed my comforter, and, of course, she laid on it, getting cat hair all over it. Ugh.

38. Favorite Flower?
I'm not sure.

39.Have you ever been caught doing something you werent supposed to?
No

41. Do you love someone?
Yes

42. Who would you like to see right now?
My family in Italy, and my friends from Seattle

44. Have you ever fired a gun?
No

45. Do you like to travel by plane?
Yes

46. Right-handed or Left-handed?
Right

47. If you could be with someone right now, who would it be?
Margaret and Amanda

48. How many pillows do you sleep with?
1

49. Are you missing someone?
Atom

50. Do you have a Tattoo?
Two

51. Do you still watch cartoons?
Of course

1. What song are you listening to?
Hello, by Oasis

2. Why do you like that song?
No particular reason. I just like Oasis.

3. What did your last incoming text message say?
"Going to work. Call you later. Meow. Atom"

4. Look at your received call list. Who is number 5?
Atom

5. Did you answer?
Yes, of course.

6. Who did you last talk to on ..
My phone, Atom. In person, Atom. On the internet, Becca (I think).

7. Do you ever wish you were a different race, and if so, what?
No. Being Italian kicks ass.

8. Would you date someone of another race?
Yes.

9. Do hobos frighten you?
Um... not really.

10. What's the most you have ever spent in the crane toy machines?
Like $2.00, which is way too much.

11. What color are your shoelaces?
White

12. If you could live anywhere, where would it be?
Italy

13. How much do you hate G.W. Bush on a scale of 1-10?
Hate is a strong word... I would say 5.

14. When is the last time you were in a hospital?
Actually, a week ago. Atom had to get his blood drawn for diabetes (runs in his family).

15. Why were you there?
Oh. I already answered that. Look at the previous question.

16. What is the most painful piercing you have had?
My second cartilage piercing. Only because it took a long time to heal.

17. Why do you take these surveys?
Because I am bored out of my mind (during the time I take them).

18. Are you a member of the mile high club?
Wtf...

19. Would you ever pick up a hitchhiker?
No

20. Would you ever hitchhike?
No

21. Have you ever cried after one of your favorite sports teams lost a game?
No

22. Would you marry a 90-year-old billionaire?
For his money. Haha. Seriously though, no.

23. Would you cut off one of your fingers for the perfect body?
No. There is no such thing as a perfect body.

24. What about a toe?
No.

25. Is there really the most perfect bassist ever?
What the hell kind of question is this...

26. Have you ever kept a fortune from a Chinese fortune cookie?
Yes, all the time.

27. Have you ever told a lover that they were good in bed, when they were not?
No. Atom is amazing in bed. Just for the record, last night was amazing ;)

28. Would you jump into a lake to save a stranger?
I would like to think I'm brave enough to.

29. Do you think your life story would make a great movie?
Fuck yea.

30. What T.V. show world would you fit right into?
I have no idea.

31. What was the sweetest thing a guy/girl did for you?
Told me we were going to his sister's ballet recital, got his whole family in on it, and surprised me by taking me to dinner at a restaurant on top of the Sandia Peaks.

32. What is your social status?(i.e:prep, clown, goth..)
Myself.

33. What is your favorite quote?
"The problem with jogging is that the ice falls out of your glass." --Annonymous

34. Are you high maintenance?
Semi.

35. Do you frequent Wal-mart/ any other 24 hr. store at all hours of the night?
Yes.

36. What's the last pill you've taken?
Birth control.

37. Would you rather be in a room with Micheal Jackson or a rattlesnake?
Neither.

38. Have you ever gone to a bookstore at 12am to buy the next Harry Potter book?
No, I usually preorder.

39. Have you ever been so bored that you counted cracks in the walls?
No.

40. If your eyes could be any color, what color would they be?
I like the color of my eyes.

41. Do you read while you eat?
No. I have to look at my food while I eat, or I miss my mouth. I'm retarded, I know.

42. What's the weirdest combination of food you've ever eaten?
A bagel with cream cheese and jam.

43. Were you pregnant or pmsing when eating it?
I definitely was not pregnant, but I could have been PMSing.

44. How long does it usually take you to drink a glass of beverage?
How ever long it takes me.

45. What did you want to be when you were in kindergarten?
A teacher, a doctor, a ballet dancer, a vet... the list goes on.

46. What do you want to be now?
An actress. If that doesn't work, a child psychiatrist.

47. What's worse, a papercut or a big gash in your finger?
Papercuts are a bitch! They always hurt like a motherfucker.

48. What is your favorite movie, and why?
The  Goonies.  Adventure, mystery, hope, fun, but seriously three words, "Hey you guuuuuys!"

49. Grab the book closest to you. Look at page 18. What is the fifth sentence?
My God, did you hear about Eddie?

50. Have you ever read a life changing book? What was it? What was so special?
I don't know.

51. Ever watched a life changing movie? What was it? What was so special?
I don't know this one either.

52. If you could change your name, what would it be?
I like my name.

53. When you were afraid of the dark, what was the creature that haunted you?
Dracula. Still does.

54. What is your favorite cartoon from the 1980's?
I'm not sure.

55. 1990's?
The Smurfs... was that the nineties?

56. 2000's?
Family Guy

57. What song comforts you when you are sad?
Any song from one of my Italy CDs

58. What song enhances your happiness?
The Pink Panther theme song.

59. What song can make you cry?
I'm not sure.

60. What song do you listen to when angry?
I don't listen to music. I just work out/cry out of anger.

Hope you enjoy. Peace.

Atom has a great acting opportunity coming up. His aunt is a photographer, and she is good friends with a director and producer(s) who are working on a new six episode mini series. Atom sent in his headshots and resume. He is flying to Albequerque to meet with the director and the producer(s) of the show. It seems like it's really going to work out. And if it does, which I'm 95% positive that it will, it will basically make his career.

I'm really happy for him. And also very excited for him. But at the same time, I can't help feeling slightly jealous.

The mini series is most likely going to be shot in Albequerque. That sucks. I won't get to see him for a while, and we'll barely get to talk because he will either (a) be shooting early in the morning and then going to bed/going out with the rest of the cast, (3) be shooting late at night and then sleeping in the morning, or (d) be shooting all day long and then going to sleep due to exhaustion. And when we do get to talk it's going to be really hard for me because he will have so much to talk about (the cast, the crew, the process of shooting), and what will I be talking about? How I made coffee for a customer, or how I'm sitting in my apartment watching TV. Basically translated into nothing.

Ugh.

So, here I am. At Atom's house, waiting for him to get off work. Slightly tired. Not hungry, but craving something really tasty to eat. Not sure what. I had the best Chineese food last night. Bell pepper chicken, with rice. It sooo good. The perfect rich, salty flavor, crisp peppers and other veggies, tender chicken... hmmm... delicious. It really hit the spot. I am craving healthy food. Hot, crispy vegetables, with either meat or fish.

At one point yesterday, I was craving roasted turkey, with potatoes and carrots and esparagus (sp?) and warm-right-out-of-the-oven bread. I had this whole train of thought: Yesterday was St. Patrick's Day (as we all know, unless you are retarded), so I thought of Margarita because she is Irish. Then I thought about how we used to spend the weekend at each other's houses all the time, and all the delicious food we would eat. At which point I thought about her mother's bread... hmmm... Margarita's mom makes the best homemade bread, with pesto... hmmm! It's orgasmic. That led me to thinking about the big dinners her mom would make us; turkey, potatoes, carrots, peas, salad, bread... the list goes on. Basically, Thanksgiving dinner. With an Irish twist.

I can't wait until Saidee and I take Lauren and Rachel to the French Bakery/Restaurant. I already know what I'm getting; the Teryaki Salmon. Salmon glazed in teryaki sauce, on a bed of white rice and crispy vegetables. It's very good. I hope I spelled teryaki right... Anyway, point being that I have an obsession with healthy food. But not just healthy food. Warm and hearty healthy food that reminds me of family and friends. Nostalgic? In need of comfort? I don't know. Perhaps.

New subject! I have seven different options for resolving and settling my life. Five of them include schools (with serious programs), one includes taking random acting classes (while working and auditioning), and the other one includes simply working and auditioning, also know as living the life of an actor. One of the school options is bound to work, right? I hope so.

New subject! Again! I browsed the internet a lot today. And out of boredom, I started looking at wedding gowns. I know. It's a bit early for that, but I thought, "Why not?" I found one that I really like, and I'm almost positive that it's the right one, but it's a rather simple gown. I mean, it has very beautiful detail, but it's not like this huge wedding gown, if you know what I mean. So, I got to thinking,"Should I have a big, great, beautiful wedding gown that makes a big impression? Or should I have a beautiful yet simple wedding gown that makes a big impression?" What do you guys think? I'm leaning towards the beautiful yet simple gown. Oh my god! I'm so excited to get married! I mean, it's not going to be for a few years, but it's still exciting to think about! I'm really looking forward to planning everything out, and asking all my girls  for their opinions, and figuring out the menu, and choosing the cake, and finding the right location (I would love to have my wedding in Italy, but most of my friends, and all of Atom's family live in the states, that it doesn't seem practical. It would be so expensive for everyone to fly to Italy. I mean, it's going to be expensive for my family to fly to the U.S. but it makes more sense for them to do that)... On the other hand, there is so much to plan that it makes me impatient and nervous. It's just like, ugh. You know?

While browsing the internet I came across an article, and took this excerpt:

"It's official. Love makes us crazy. For one, it causes serotonin levels in the brain to drop, which may lead people to obsess about their lover. (The levels of serotonin, a chemical produced by the body, are also low in people who have obsessive compolsive disorder.) Next, it ramps up production of the stress hormone cortisol, leading to slightly higher blood pressure and possible loss of sleep. Finally, a scientist at the University of London has found that went people look at their new loves, the neural circuits that are usually in charge of social judgment are supressed. All in all, love kind of leaves you obsessive, stressed, and blind. And we love it."

Hmmm. Well, that's good. Considering the fact that I am already slightly obsessive compolsive, and already incredibly stressed out about getting accepted into university, and figuring out my life. But I suppose that explains the lack of sleep. As for the blindness? Don't know. 

Enough of that. I wish Atom would hurry up and get here, so we can do something. Even though we probably won't do anything because he has been working since 5 o'clock in the morning, and will be tired. But at least I'll be doing nothing with somebody else.

I would really like to just go for a walk somewhere. A park would be nice. Although, the weather isn't that great. It's cold and grey. Makes me think of Seattle. I would really like to do anything. I guess I wouldn't mind just sitting at home watching TV, but I would rather do at my place. I wish my place had a fire place. It would be nice to just sit by the fire and read a book, while drinking hot chocolate. I kind of want to make smores. It would be nice to have a barbecue, and make shiska-bobs (sp?), and then make smores for dessert. I really just want something tasty to eat.

News update. This just in: There is a group of people protesting the war in Iraq, on Sunset and Highland, and Atom was not able to get on the freeway. He is taking Laurel Canyon, and that is why he is taking so long to get home. Up next: Are Ring Pops the new fashion accessory? Find out, tonight, at eleven.

And I'm done.